Saturday, January 23, 2010

Life is tough

that I can't believe I am living it right now.......

Everyday is the same....feed, change nappies and a crying baby. My life has changed. Gone is the free soul.....

I love AJ no doubt, but I am still trying to adjust to this significant change in my lifestyle. It is hard and depressing. I have had many teary days since the birth of AJ.

A good friend of mine still couldn't believe that I am now a mum. ME EITHER! I suppose I am just not that kind, you know, the kind you called "mum".

Everyday I look in the mirror, I see a stranger, a pale-looking lady with messy hair. (-_-).......She comes around everyday uninvited and she sticks around 24/7! Please....make her go away......

I admit, a smile from AJ makes it all worthwhile, wish he could smile all day everyday.

And it is as if life is not bad enough, the weather has to ruin the lunch we had planned for today. We put it off till tomorrow.

I am hanging there, grabbing every thread I could reach. For him, I have to be strong, and be strong I will.

I will get through, eventually........

13 comments:

(( Ms. K )) said...

Yup, be strong!
>>> sending you a great big hugs!

LMD said...

That's life I guess. That's what makes life interesting isn't it? We grow up, getting looked after for a while before we're on our own feet, explore the world on our own. There comes a phase of life when we will be looking after our own crown jewel, make sure he/she's all ok growing up and has all the necessities to become one great person, hopefully just like us, or even better.

So, don't fret. There is definitely light at the end of the tunnel. You just need to get to that, and you will. The person you see in front of the mirror at the moment is exactly the person you should be seeing right now. That's a mother, AJ's mother, the mother he knows best for now. He wouldn't know it any other way. So don't worry about changing it, not just yet. The time will come....

Hang in there my dear.

Declan Isaac said...

hey
Your hardship is worth it! All for AJ :)

Doreen said...

((Ms. K)):
Thanks dearie! (^_^)

LMD:
Truly well said! Many thanks for your encouragement and yes, I will hang in there, for AJ.

Declan Isaac:
I'm sure it will, and that's what holding me together right now.

tuti said...

*hugs*
sending love and sunshine. :)

Declan Isaac said...

time flies ... look at us.
Geeze, what am i talking about! If it is so easy, i'll have a dozen kids liaoz :p

emotionalistic said...

I'm sure you will get through, hun. Wishing you a great day tomorrow! *hugs* =)

Jennifer Yap said...

This is called BB blues. Ive been there done that.. i was so sensitive when people just make a little suggestion or comment. I couldnt remember how many times ive cried and i was very depressed for the first 6 months then life suddenly turned so good. You need to talk to Rick when u r not happy or sad... you will be fine and get thru Doreen. Trust me. Be strong for AJ and all the best.

Winn said...

:( *hugs doreen*

Doreen said...

tuti:
*Signature tight tight hugs*

Declan Isaac:
hahaha, and you know what, I strongly agree giving birth is so much easier than raising a kid.

emotionalistic:
Thanks hun! *hugs*

Jennifer Yap:
Thanks Jennifer! I have been talking to Rick and the depression still comes and goes. I feel so sorry that Rick has to put up with all these. I believe life will turn out good eventually.

Winn:
*hug Winn back*

Declan Isaac said...

now u know why i said i wanted to stuff the baby back into my womb?hahahaha

oceanskies79 said...

This looks like a new phase of life that you are entering. Care and best wishes for you. :)

Shingo T said...

The crisis of today will be the joke of tomorrow.

Hang on, Doreen. Better days are coming.